Strong Female Characters, a New Halloween Story, and More About Swords!

Gods, I’ve been busy!

Baby Got Backbone

Recently, a number of genre magazines decided to dedicate an issue to all female authors with the title “Women Destroy <Genre>!”  Nightmare Magazine hosted a Women Destroy Horror! issue for October 2014, Issue 25. Ellen Datlow edited the fiction section, which includes stories by Tanith Lee, Joyce Carol Oates and Pat Cadigan.

When the nonfiction editor, Lisa Morton, asked me to write something as a sort of follow up to my women with swords BabyGotBackbonearticle, I jumped at the chance. I’ve been thinking a lot about the trend to create “strong” female characters by giving them fighting abilities. “Baby Got Backbone: What Makes Strong Women ‘Kick’ in Horror Films and TV Shows” is the result. I’m pleased to say it’s available in the exclusive paid content section of this issue. You’ll have to buy the issue (ebook or trade paperback) to read the article, but given all the great authors who’ve contributed, it’s worth it!

We’ve already had a request from a professor at a major university on the East Coast to possibly use my article in a class next semester, 2015. I’ll post if we get confirmation.

“Harvest of Flames”

Wow! It’s been a while since I wrote a new short story, especially horror. “Harvest of Flames” is a Halloween story for dog lovers, but pet owners in general will relate powerfully to the protagonist who has lost her dog. When she discovers dogs are disappearing all over Los Angeles two weeks before Halloween, even more horrors befall her as she is hellbent on finding out why.

The story appears in the new anthology Halloween Tales published by Omnium Gatherum and edited by the wonderful Kate Jonez. Amazon carries both Kindle and paperback versions of the anthology. Proceeds go to the HWA Hardship Fund.

I’m also working on putting out the story as an Amazon Single in the next couple of days so that anyone can pick it up. Stay tuned!

ETA: HERE IT IS! A Samhain treat for you at $0.99.

“Four of the Dumbest Things Done with Swords in Film and Fiction”

It’s on! My SF Signal guest blog post is generating some terrific responses all over the Twittersphere. I’m thrilled that people are learning about swords and that they’ll be applying it in their own writing. Huzzah! Thanks to everyone for their shares and comments. You guys are awesome.

More News About MR. WICKER, SoCal Appearances and Interviews

I’ve been pretty chuffed about all the good things people are saying about Mr. Wicker. There’s been so much new stuff, I can hardly keep up. Here we go!

The Big News: Library Journal

Screen Shot 2014-10-16 at 11.03.37 PMThis important publication not only gave the novel a Starred Review, but it  named the book Debut of the Month. (You can read the whole article online.) For those not familiar with Library Journal, this is one of the publications that librarians use to decide which books to purchase. I’m just thrilled that any librarian would love The Librarian.

October 21 and 22: More SoCal Appearances

Lit Up! Reading & Signing

October 21, 2014
7:00 pm
Kean’s Coffee13681 Newport Ave
Tustin, California 92780
(714) 838-5326

NoHo Lit Crawl Reading & Signing

October 22, 2014
7:00pm – 7:45pm
Blastoff Comics
5118 Lankershim Blvd
North Hollywood, CA 91601
(818) 980-BOOK

Day of the Dead Party Reading & Signing

Mysterious Galaxy
November 1, 2014
3:00 p.m.
7051 Clairemont Mesa Blvd., Suite #302
San Diego, CA 92111

New Interviews & Miscellaneous

I did a really fun mini-interview with the brilliant dark poet Wendy Rathbone on her blog, “From the Left Dimension.”

My old pal Adam Campbell interviewed me on his podcast, “Anywhere but Hollywood,” about the art of adaptation. This is one of my favorite interviews of all time.

This isn’t an interview, but you can hear me read my poem, “I Cannot Love You,” as part of the 2014 Halloween Poetry Reading for the Science Fiction Poetry Association. It should drive a nice chill deep into your heart.

I’ll leave you with my sexy Horror Selfie for the Horror Writers Association drive to promote horror literature:


The Problems with Kira and Her Katana on Teen Wolf

I love MTV’s Teen Wolf.

I know what you’re thinking. Shut up and read.

I’m not sure what it is about this show, but even when it’s bad (like parts of Season 4, alas), there’s always something wonderful about it — namely, the characters. For those not familiar with the series, it’s a relentlessly dark-sexy-bloody take on the “high school boy becomes a werewolf” story. The main character is Scott McCall, played by the utterly charming Tyler Posey. Scott’s an adorable kid who gets bitten by a big, bad alpha werewolf. But it turns out Scott’s a “natural alpha,” which we gather is because of his moral courage and loyalty to his loved ones. This grants him a special position in the supernatural realm. It’s totally Buffy the Vampire Slayer for this generation, complete with MTV hand-feeding each episode terrific new musical tidbits.

While Scott’s first romance with Crystal Reed’s character, Allison Argent, was delightfully squishy and heartbreaking, it’s his second romantic interest that I really adore: Kira Yukimura.

Played by the talented Arden Cho, Kira is brave, intelligent and achingly sweet all at once. Seriously, as much as I love Stiles, Scott, Lydia, Coach and the lot, Kira is my favorite.

She’s a supernatural creature by birth known as a thunder kitsune. This means she has the ability to control electricity — also known as “foxfire.” We see her do this repeatedly on the show. With her bare hands, she reforges a shattered katana given to her by her mother, who is a 900-year-old kitsune. That very katana becomes Kira’s personal weapon. She displays some flashy moves to Scott in one episode of Season 3b, explaining that she is “picking it up quickly.”

Unfortunately, no matter how much she swings at the bad guys, she isn’t effective with her weapon. And when she does hit them, she does no lasting damage except in the episode “The Divine Move.” Even then, she doesn’t deliver a fatal blow without Scott’s help subduing the bad guy. (Can you see me rolling my eyes?) Eventually, she’s able to use it to deflect arrows, which is okay, but that’s not hitting people or monsters.

This move here? You do this with a bo stick, not a sword. Bringing back the arms and turning away from your opponent? That’s actually a very weak position. There’s your katana lesson for the day.

If you’ve been reading this blog, you know I have a lot to say about women with swords and how they’re depicted in the media. In the  episode “Silverfinger,” which was beautifully researched and written by Moira McMahon Leeper, the characters learn that the pinky finger is the strongest in holding a sword…which is awesomely fucking true. The outer fingers anchor the tsuka. You don’t choke up on it like a bat, squeezing it with your thumb, index and middle fingers. I was really happy to hear this detail and enjoyed how it was used metaphorically in the plot.

What I’m not happy about is the flashy-splashy swordplay that they choreograph for Cho. Opposed to the bad guys with swords, she looks like a ballerina with a swizzle stick rather than a badass samurai. The katana is a two-handed sword. It “works” because it leverages the cross pressure of your opposing hands. But Kira is flinging that thing around with one hand like it’s made of paper. (And it might be, although it’s more likely aluminum.) The choreography of her fights doesn’t reflect any actual Japanese swordsmanship like Shinkendo, which would really make her look super freaking badass. While one can tell just by the way they let her choke up on the handle like a bat, it’s especially evident in that very scene with the arrow deflection. They have her chopping downward repeatedly rather than down and up in a natural kiriagi pattern, which would have been much faster and more elegant. (And, again, more badass.)

I suppose it’s possible that the MTV execs just don’t want her to look too scary. But that would be weird because the other women in the show — especially the werewolves — are incredibly tough fighters. You see them take down one opponent after the next without breaking a sweat. In fact, I otherwise totally dig the fight choreography. It’s always exciting, brutal and engaging, no matter who’s slashing whom. It’s another reason I love the show.

As mentioned in my admission about the character Michonne, I’m willing to let a lot slide if the audience perceives the character as strong. I’m sure fans see Kira that way. In my opinion, the things that make her strong have little to do with her fighting ability. But here’s the thing that super fucking annoys me:


Because here’s the thing: let’s say she’s even somewhat effective with her katana. If she channeled foxfire into the nakago (tang) and therefore into the blade (a ready and perfect conduit), she would be arguably the most dangerous character on the show. Are they keeping her from doing this on purpose? Or have they not thought of it? We all know about the foxfire. It’s not a secret. In the episode “Weaponized,” she even loses control of it temporarily. If it were an ability she needed to work on harnessing, wouldn’t she totally be focused on trying to turn that katana into a megawatt-shitting electrical weapon? She knows how electricity affects the werewolves. She would have figured this out. (And if she didn’t think of it, Lydia sure as hell would’ve.) She could have definitely dealt with those Berserkers that she and Liam were messing with so feebly. She could have also got the whuppin’ on Kate. (Come to think of it, in the fight scene where she was wielding a chain, the same thing applies.)

But no.

I have been a major pain in the ass to a friend who is a co-producer on the show. I feel terrible for bugging him about this. But by all rights, Kira should be a far more powerful character at this point. I know that Cho has studied swords of some kind as part of her extensive martial arts training, but that only makes her easier to work with. It doesn’t let her enact the full power of the character if it’s not written for her. It’s possible Jeff Davis and his writers are still trying to figure out foxfire, but I kind of doubt that.

Of course, I’m also assuming they’ve thought of this possibility. Maybe they haven’t.

So, here’s my appeal to Sensei Davis. Man, I love your show. You’re great. Everybody’s great. (Season 4 was not, in my opinion, great, but I have faith in you and Season 5.) Please let the genie out of the bottle and have Kira don her true badassery.

Domo arigato gozaimashita.

Mr. Wicker Launch Success, Interviews & Next Signing

Thanks to everyone for such a successful launch this weekend!

Shades & Shadows Reading

It started with a terrific standing-room-only reading at the Shades & Shadows reading series Saturday night, where I read with some great female horror talent. I especially loved meeting Caitlin Dougherty and Edith Cohn. And I always love seeing Nancy Holder, who is dear to me. The response to my reading was overwhelmingly positive. Gatsby Books happened to have several copies of Mr. Wicker, which they sold.

Dark Delicacies Book Launch Success

Yeehaw! The turnout for the signing at Dark Delicacies on Sunday was terrific! Thanks to everyone who came and bought books. You are all rock stars. In the age of the Kindle, I was surprised that the hardcover books sold out first. Lovely!

First reviews are coming in on the book, and they’re great! So pleased that Alicia and the Librarian are making a good impression on people.

Save the Cat!® Blog Post

Check out my guest blog post, “What You See Is Who You Get: POV in Script-To-Book Adaptations.” Screenwriters are already telling me it’s incredibly helpful in both their adaptation work and simply learning to write novels.

The Qwillery Interview

I really enjoyed this particular interview, wherein I talk about my personal writing background, inspirations and what’s incredibly unique about the book trailer. In fact, I don’t believe there is a book trailer in existence with this feature. What am I talking about? Well, read and see!

Next Stop: Borderlands Books on 9/27

My next reading and signing will be at Borderlands Books in San Francisco on September 27, 2014 at 3:00 pm. I’m a Bay Area native, so I’m especially excited about this stop. Don’t miss it!


Get Ready for the Wild Rumpus!

We’re getting close to the release of Mr. Wicker!

Hardcover copies of Mr. WickerThe Wild Rumpus starts September 16, 2014. You can still preorder your copy at a discount on Amazon. If you have Amazon Prime, you get free shipping!

Guest Blog Post at Save the Cat! on 9/19

Look for a guest blog post by me on the Save the Cat!® website next Friday, September 19th. I’ll be talking about how to approach common POV writing problems that screenwriters have when they try to adapt one of their scripts to novel. Since Mr. Wicker began as a script, I’ll be speaking from personal experience and sharing my expertise as both a produced screenwriter and published fiction writer.

Shades and Shadows Reading on 9/20

As a pre-celebration, I’ll be reading from the novel at the Shades and Shadows Reading Series. Here are the details:

September 20, 2014
8:00 pm
California Institute of Abnormal Arts
11334 Burbank Blvd
North Hollywood, CA 91601
$10 admission fee

Official Book Launch at Dark Delicacies on 9/21

The official celebration will be a signing at my favorite bookstore, Dark Delicacies!

September 21, 2014
2:00 pm
Dark Delicacies
3512 W. Magnolia
Burbank, CA 91505

See my Appearances page for more information about upcoming events in San Francisco, Orange County and San Diego.

Stay Tuned for More Sword Controversy

I’m currently writing a guest blog post for SF Signal about swords in film and fiction that might heat up the interwebs, as well as completing interviews for The Qwillery, The Big Thrill, and many more.

Catch you all on the flip side of the rumpus.

Publishers Weekly Praise for MR. WICKER

The first time anything of mine has been reviewed in Publishers Weekly, and it’s a good one. Thanks so much to the reviewer for the kind words. I’m glad you enjoyed it!

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Mr. Wicker
Maria Alexander. Raw Dog Screaming, $14.95
trade paper (236p) ISBN 978-1-935738-66-4

Convincing in its haunting whimsy,
Alexander’s emotionally complex faerie
tale comments on grim reality with chilling
metaphors. A suicide attempt leads
failed horror novelist Alicia Baum to the
Library of Lost Childhood Memories and
Mr. Wicker, a sinister man who arouses
both her passion and her disgust, before
she returns to life. She ends up in the care
of Dr. Farron, a gentle psychologist researching
the concept of bogeymen. Alicia
strives to recover missing childhood
memories as increasingly violent accidents
befall her friends and family, and
she grows more and more convinced that
Mr. Wicker is not only real but intimately
connected to her past. Alexander (By
the Pricking) makes the impossible feel
probable, anchoring fantasy in everyday
struggles. Alicia’s spitfire defiance and
charming vulnerability, and the eventual
romance between her and Dr. Farron, inject
warmth into chilling encounters between
a world that shouldn’t exist and
undependable reality. Illness, loss, and
heartache color this splendid, bittersweet
ode to the ghosts of childhood.

Blog Hop: Meet My Character, Alicia Baum

For this “Meet My Character” blog hop, I was kindly tagged by the delightful Connie Archer, national bestselling author of the soup lover’s mystery series from Berkley Prime Crime.  A Spoonful of Murder, A Broth of Betrayal and A Roux of Revenge are set in the imaginary village of Snowflake, Vermont.  The fourth book in the series, Ladle to the Grave, will be released in April 2015.  Visit her website and blog and Facebook page. You can find her on Twitter as @snowflakeVT.

Alicia Baum

He sunk his quill in the well. “The once-beloved horror writer, no less. At last you’ve come to see…Mr. Wicker.”

Intelligent. Independent. Passionate. Depressed. Angry.


Authors rarely kill off the main character in the first paragraph, but that’s exactly what I’ve done in Mr. Wicker, which comes out from Raw Dog Screaming Press on September 16.  A Caucasian from Los Angeles in her mid-30s, Alicia Baum lives in the San Francisco Bay Area. She was once a “wunderkind” writer (or was she just lucky?) whose works peaked in popularity when she was quite young. But now she’s lost everything: relationships, family, career, health.

Not to mention her mind.

Alicia’s career lay in pieces, shredded by the fits of fortune. As her wrists bled, the books she’d written, old and new, burned in the fireplace. Her husband had run off some time ago, leaving her the house with a double mortgage. Relationships, family—they, too, had run out, some sooner than later. She’d waited for the good things to come, nature abhorring a vacuum, but things continued to leave…and after the doctor’s call that morning, that’s when she’d decided she would take the last thing that could be taken. She’d prove God was an asshole for expecting her to hope while He took everything else.

But there’s a reason for her losses; she just doesn’t know it. They were set in motion by a childhood event so terrible that, when she was still a little girl, she brought the memory of it to the Library of Lost Childhood Memories in her dreams. The Librarian, Mr. Wicker, recorded it in a book that she would retrieve upon death. When she woke up, she could not remember the event at all. It wouldn’t be until after death that she would have to collect the book so that she could move on — to other realms, to the next life, to whatever comes next.

Brave, Salty, Badass

When she returns to the Library after the suicide, her experience there is brief. Even then, we see she’s strong-willed and skeptical. She doesn’t believe Mr. Wicker is real and refuses to take her book when it’s time to enter the light. Incidentally, leaving the Library after death without one’s book is A Very Bad Thing. So, without her knowing it was him, Mr. Wicker has her rescued by an emergency crew. She isn’t exactly grateful to her attending physician when she wakes up in ER:

“So, if we let you go, will you try to kill yourself again?”
More tears. She rubbed her cheek on the pillow to dry them.
“Do you plan to do this again?” Dr. Farron asked.
Her eyes drove a look deep into his that revealed not just keen intelligence but bottomless heartache. “You think I’d tell a fuckwit like you? Fuck—OFF!”

Her impulsiveness and anxiety catapult the reader on more than one roller coaster ride; but her openness to mystery, big heart and tremendous courage ultimately help her face horrors that would drive you and I to madness.

Pre-Order Mr. Wicker Now and Save $2.00

Don’t delay! Choose from trade paperback, hard cover or e-book before September 16 from Raw Dog Screaming Press to receive the discount. You can also pre-order the Kindle copy on Amazon. After September 16, prices return to normal but the book will be available at your favorite online store and many traditional bookstores.

Authors I’ve Tagged

Look for entries from these writers around September 4, 2014!

Susan Peterson Wisnewski is the author of Secrets in San Remo and Chasing the Rainbow, both romantic suspense novels. She will be releasing a new series of paranormal thrillers this fall, tentatively titled Adams Thriller I, II, & III.

Sèphera Girón‘s recent Samhain Horror novella, Flesh Failure, was released in July 2014, hot on the heels of Captured Souls (March 2014). Sèphera’s work has also been published by Leisure Books, Neon books, Orion, Raincoast, Conari, Necon ebooks and others. Sèphera is also a professional tarot reader and paranormal investigator.

Jay Faulkner is a writer, martial artist, sketcher, and dreamer but mostly just a husband and father. His work has been published widely, both online and in print anthologies, and was short-listed in the Penguin Ireland Short Story Competition. He’s currently working on his debut novel, Djinn, book one of the Blood Ties trilogy.




Mourning Jewelry: Poems Every Dark Heart Will Treasure


Not long ago, Stephanie Wytovich gave me a review copy of her new poetry collection, Mourning Jewelry. My dear friend Jill Tracy had written a blurb for it, so I knew it must be special. I was first struck by Steven Archer’s cover, which sets the tone perfectly for this excursion into the depths of our heart’s horrors.

Wytovich’s style is free form. While that’s not everyone’s cuppa when it comes to poetry, I’m partial to it, as it’s my preferred style, as well, although I can see why some people find it to be lazy writing. Wytovich’s is anything but. Startling imagery and disturbing desires burrow into the flesh of her verse to lovely effect. Whether it’s a woman who pins a patch of her dead lover’s skin to the inside of her bra or another who “sweetens” her morning coffee with the dust of her dead husbands’ gravestones, each poem lifts the coffin lid on a delightfully grim tale of Tiffany-twisted love. I especially enjoyed the clever turn at the end of each piece, a coda that delivers a surprising, even darker revelation about the narrator.

While some might be tempted to liken Wytovich’s tainted romances to Baudelaire, her work reminds me far more of Les Chants de Maldoror by the Comte de Lautréamont, aka Isidore Ducasse. In Les Chants, the narrator, Maldoror, uses generous doses of black humor in his “poison-filled pages” to explore and even glorify the nature of evil. Mourning Jewelry is similarly rife with black humor, such as in the poem “They Keep Dying” about a woman whose husbands die as soon as they say “I do.” Or in “Urns Make Me Drunk,” where a woman uses her dead husband’s urn and ashes to make a martini.

I keep picking examples about dead spouses, but many of the poems are simply about the deranged relationships. “Xerox His Death Certificate” is probably one of my favorites, where a girl photocopies the man’s death certificate and uses it to wallpaper her place. “It would feel good to stab him again,” she says in the last line, lacing murder with sexual innuendo. Death and sex are the meat of many poems, but Wytovich manages to avoid invoking that cliché of the “little death.” Actually, orgasm in this collection is more like a big, fucking nasty death, thank you very much.

And yet there’s a wrenching vulnerability in these poems. The ache of barrenness, the grief and rage of heartbreak, bitterness that shoots first and hopes later — if ever. Horror is the only genre that can give full expression to this kind of emotional pain. And, man, I’ve been there.

Here’s hoping Stephanie gets the recognition she deserves for this collection of poems. Gruesome yet alluring like the title suggests, these poetic gems are cut with coffin nails and polished to a gleam with a fatalism every dark heart will treasure.

Book Trailer for Mr. Wicker

Lots of talent went into this video. John Palisano directed the trailer and created the special FX, with backup from major Hollywood effects pro and author, Mike McCarty. The gorgeous and creepy interstitial cards were created by the very talented designer, Neil A. Williams II. I wrote the Mr. Wicker theme ages ago, but Jill Tracy‘s amazing adaptation and performance of it just floors me. Her magic makes this video complete.

And, yes, there’s something special at the end. Ahem.

Is this “triggery”? Yup. So is the whole damn book. Consider this a warning. Or a big red, shiny bow. Whichever you prefer.

Thanks for watching! Don’t forget: save money when you pre-order your copy of Mr. Wicker directly from Raw Dog Screaming Press.

Farewell, BBC World Have Your Say

It’s the end of an era.

I got word on July 17 that the BBC chiefs are cancelling the 9-year show, World Have Your Say (WHYS). To say that I’m disappointed doesn’t begin to convey the sadness of this news, as it played an important part in my life.

How I Started on the Show

Back in 2006, I was living in France and currently visiting Paris when I stumbled across the show on the BBC website. I was reading an article about the phenomenon of Japanese visitors having to be expatriated because they were having nervous breakdowns in Paris. Apparently, their experience of Paris was profoundly different from what they’d expected before they arrived. They were told they’d be waited on hand and foot by Parisian shopkeepers, that France was welcoming and warm. When a Japanese tourist discovered this was not remotely the case, he or she sometimes had a nervous breakdown and had to be put on a plane back home. The WHYS wanted foreigners in France to be on the radio show and answer this question:

Are Parisians Really that Rude?

Well, no. No more than residents of any other big city. I wrote to the producers about a great experience I’d had on the metro the other day that showed how kind Parisians could be to people who were clearly not French. They responded immediately, and I wound up speaking for the first time on international radio. I didn’t really get to talk about that wonderful metro experience, but I loved getting to participate and hear other people’s ideas on the subject.

More topics arose as I continued to follow the program. I signed up for the daily emails that I read religiously. I would promise myself I wouldn’t respond before my morning coffee, as my reactions to the questions posed were sometimes fairly strong. Their philosophy was to gather people from all over the world to get their viewpoints on current events. It was brilliant. I was at times uncomfortable reading and hearing people from parts of the world that were far more conservative than the U.S., with no concept of reproductive rights or even that women had rights at all. But over time, I learned to listen and appreciate how singular my culture was and what life was like for other people.

Me and Blasphemy on the BBC

A gift from Brian Flemming, The God Who Wasn't There DVD

A gift from Brian Flemming

Soon, I got to bring my own program to WHYS that surely made almost everyone squirm: a discussion of The Blasphemy Challenge. The filmmaker Brian Flemming was offering everyone who uploaded a video of themselves blaspheming the Holy Spirit a free DVD of his brilliant documentary, The God Who Wasn’t There. I got to open the program and close it, and had the time of my life. The show was followed another day by a debate between the Rational Response Squad and people like the former assistant to the Archbishop of Canterbury. On that show, I got to get rational with people across the globe.

Ros the Boss

I really enjoyed getting to know Ros Atkins, who was the head producer of WHYS. He has since gone on to head other radio shows on the Beeb. He was polished and professional, yet kind and thoughtful. He always had a moment to answer one of my emails. He had a potentially incendiary show on his hands as cultures and personalities clashed on the airwaves, yet he handled it with grace and humor. In early 2007, as I sat in a 17th-century French kitchen, he and I recorded a commercial for WHYS using Skype to explain how easy it was to use the technology to call into the show. Truly, every producer I worked with was fantastic, but Ros was my favorite.

Lubna’s Crisis

When I returned to the States in the summer of 2007, a crisis happened. One of the show regulars, a young woman named Lubna Naji from Iraq, was dangerously depressed because it was her birthday and three of her friends had been killed in the last few weeks. Ros coordinated a group of callers that included myself, a gentleman in the UK and others from various continents to talk to Lubna on the air. We assured her that life was worth living and that we very much wanted her to carry on. It seemed to work. Lubna remained a contributor at least until 2012.

Lubna Naji

Lubna Naji

I have a special place in my heart for her, as she kept WHYS informed about life in Baghdad. Was the U.S. invasion good or bad? She gave us no easy answers. In the midst of ongoing chaos, she went on to graduate from medical school in 2010. It was a honor to speak with her and I’m especially glad that I got the opportunity to tell her how divided U.S. citizens were over President Bush’s invasion of Iraq. I hope I helped her and other Iraqis understand that not all Americans supported that effort.

My Favorite Show: Live on Venice Beach

My favorite event by far was when WHYS came to Los Angeles. Style, Spin and American Politics: Live from Venice Beach took place on September 10, 2008. I sat at a table on the beach with Ros; Mark Sawyer, political science professor at UCLA; editor Ted Johnson from Variety (who had been arrested during the protests outside the Republican National Convention); and a reporter named Maria Joyouspirit who has a show on KPFK. We spoke with an array of fascinating people from all over the world — like Lance Price, who’d been Tony Blair’s spin doctor. We had a fascinating hour of political talk with people from all over the globe.

BBCbusThe best part? Ros took me on board the BBC bus.

More pictures can be seen of the big debate that happened at the Skirball the evening before on my Flickr account.

My Personal Boston Mini-Bomb

Over the years, I would regularly announce on social media when I was going to be on a WHYS show. Bosses all excused me for the 30 to 45 minutes that I needed to engage in the day’s topic. One day in April 2013 when I announced on Facebook I’d be speaking on the BBC about the Boston bombings, it came to my attention that people had no idea why I was talking on the BBC. Why me? What did I know? How was I connected to these events? (It turns out that it wasn’t just one friend questioning. It came up at a later event from someone less polite than my friend David.)

Crap! Had I seriously been doing this for so long that I hadn’t explained what WHYS was to my rapidly expanding audience and network of friends? Each time I’d announced a show appearance, were they all wondering if I’d illegitimately passed myself off as an expert on yet another topic?

I tried to course correct there on Facebook that day. I told them about WHYS, how that morning I’d had a very strong reaction to someone’s quote in the daily email that suggested we label certain forms of religious feeling as mental illness. I’d shot off an email to the WHYS producers that to do this would violate the very foundation of the United States and what it means to be an American. I explained how the producers had wanted me to repeat that on the show.

And I did.

My Favorite (and Last) WHYS Appearance

As some of you know, my father passed away in August 2013.

When I received an email from the WHYS in early October 2013 that they were doing a show about fathers and how they had affected us, I emailed them a link to my blog post about my father’s recent death (“The King of Shadows is Dead”), as well as a link to my published short story, “The King of Shadows.” Two different producers responded in separate emails. Very soon, I found myself on air with Mandy Stadtmiller (the editor of xoJane) and a handful of others talking about our dads.

Mandy Stadtmiller, Editor of xoJane

Mandy Stadtmiller, Editor of xoJane

Although Mandy’s dad seemed the most complex and colorful, my dad was clearly the anti-father of the group. Our definitions of morality and personal responsibility had clashed my whole life. I explained how I’d often gone against his example to maintain my integrity. Do the opposite of dad, and you’ll be okay.

For that hour, I let my feelings roam the international stage. If I hadn’t spoken up, I would have betrayed my memories and lifelong struggles.

I discovered that day that it’s one thing to express publicly your opinion on a controversial topic. It’s quite another to lay out the bones of your life before millions. It was a powerful experience I will never forget.

The Guillotine Drops

I knew something was up with the show when I stopped getting the daily email. I asked the WHYS team why we weren’t getting emails anymore. A producer responded that their analytics indicated people weren’t reading them. I could understand why. Everyone was getting information these days via Facebook and Twitter. Email was often reserved for the most personal communications. And even then.

Then I got the news on Twitter a few days ago that the BBC Chiefs were shutting down the show. I hadn’t realized that it had been going on for a whole year before I’d discovered it that day in Paris. For nine years, the BBC gave the world a voice about the day’s headlines. And now that’s ending.

Farewell, WHYS

As WHYS leaves the BBC airwaves, my first book is being released from Raw Dog Screaming Press. I’ll soon have a whole new platform for my thoughts and opinions through my creative work. But I’ll hugely miss the excitement of seeing that foreign phone number appear on my cell and hearing friendly British voices as they prep me for the show. I’ll miss the pounding of my heart as I respond to opinions from far-flung folk whose voices fill my ear. And I’ll miss making amazing connections with people like Mandy and Lubna.

An important chapter of my life has closed, but I can say this: I listened. I spoke. And I’m proud that I did.

Thanks kindly to Ros and everyone at BBC World Service. During those shows, you made me feel like an important part of the team. Here’s hoping our pathways cross again on the airways soon.